Written by eLbie in zEn at 1:46 am on Jul, 24 2010
…and the fake will hate. wise words from one of my best homegirls.
it’s the truth. when some real shit hits the fan, it’s almost like the fake people are ALLERGIC and break out in hives!!! [giggle] it’s kinda funny actually. unfortunately for all the fake-ertons that come across my way, i’ve been dubbed the [official] bull-shit detective and i take my job very seriously.
-BLOOOOOP-
it’s sad but true that often times, the statement ‘nice guys finish last’ has a big troop fighting for it’s cause. good people that give without thought, however, are often times taken advantage of by the spiritually-hungry-hippos that want nothing but to destroy the precious light of the giver.
[i think NOT]
seriously though, whenever i get a chance, i make it a point to fight for the good guys cuz it’s not fair that the bad guys get to have all the fun darnit.
Written by eLbie in zEn at 4:03 pm on Jul, 19 2010
“it’s good to have money and the things that money can buy, but it’s good, too, to check up once in a while that you haven’t lost the things that money can’t buy.” -unknown
i have to learn more patience… imagine that. i always thought that i had a lot of it, which i DO, but honestly when it comes to CERTAIN things, i have ZERO zilch. nada. i’m very happy to have my heart back in one piece |enter applause| — yes the world is blue again… *giggle*
been working like a DOG since i got back from china. i got goals to reach and businesses to open. i’m telling you- the work ethic that i witnessed over there was BEYOND anything i have ever seen before.
after seeing ALLLLL those people working SO hard, in the most EXTREME conditions, for [damn near] little-to-no pay —- i was transformed into a whole ‘nother person. i mean i have always worked hard for what i want but SHEESH! what i was doing = VACATION compared to the hard-working men and women of china.
hi honies,
been soooo busy. barely time to breathe i.e. WRITE. sheesh! you should see how many posts i have chillin’ in my drafts. a MESS. i have to dedicate this blog publication to my boo who said some magical words of encouragement to me. i swear, i love that child. . . <3
ok. so, the planets are lining up slowly but surely, recording a great song with 2 great producers [dj spacey and her partner 'domino'] -- a couple months ago, i came across 'spacey' on twitter and soon realized we like the same genres of 'underground' music. soon after that, i received a track in my inbox that had me jumping out of my bed and *wiggle dance* ing all around my room. it was exactly what i'd been looking for. for, what has now become YEARS, i have been looking for a team that i can create a sound with, not just write and record songs.
even though it was the first time i met the two, the energy was very comfortable. at first, i think my insides were a bit uncertain if i was 'good enough' to work with folks that i actually WANTED to work with. but shortly after we began, it began to feel familiar again. that unmistakable high that comes as a result of putting words and melodies together on a microphone and hearing it all played back instantly.
*feels brand new every time*
the song is getting a preliminary mix this week... y'all know i'm a perfectionist- so hopefully i can have it up to par enough to share in the next couple weeks! LOL. In the meantime, here is a pic snapped by spacey while i was totally oblivious and recording some harmonies.
Written by eLbie in zEn at 1:09 pm on Jun, 21 2010
recently, i’ve been privy to a lot of back-stabbing. what the hell??? don’t get me wrong. i know i’m not supposed to be surprised but it never ceases to amaze me, the audacity of people that walk this earth. pure dirt balls for no reason. its raggedy and dangerous [refer to: snapped on oxygen] people need to stop playing.
sleeping with a “friend’s” spouse & coming over for dinner, cheating on someone & not even thinking about using protection, “working extra hours” & sleeping with your co-worker.
yea…. i see you
it’s like doing something sneaky and shady isn’t enough, people have to add insult to injury by doing it messy too. i’m so sick of hearing about people hurting people and not giving a fukk about it. RUDE. i do my best to stay away from people like this. [and i'm very good at it] the ones that have somehow bamboozled their way into my life, get immediately extracted. oh no u will NOT. . .
Written by eLbie in zEn at 12:49 am on Jun, 10 2010
the way i used to be so free…
free from too much white noise-
free from distorting what is real.
unapologetic about who i am
and what i want to be.
unafraid of what wisdom has taught me,
unmoved by circumstantial situations
constantly pushing the envelope.
i remember…
cursing out disrespect and
knocking inconsideration up-side the head.
kicking stupidity in the knee-cap and
slapping selfishness right across it’s ugly face.
what happened?
what went wrong?
what i thought would lead me to a brighter light
was only an lookalike - leading me further deep…
into confusion.
made a u-turn… now there’s a detour ahead.
it ain’t gonna be easy
but dammit,
i’m going in the right direction!
never too late to heal properly.
and before you go assuming about what it is that i’m healing from,
just remember that we are ALL wounded creatures.
-a-L-L-
dedicated to all those who are afraid to love: and to the broken hearts that you create all around you.
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|a walking contradiction|
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