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Apr

24

2008

omg-too much to eLog about…

Written by eLbie in zEn at 11:36 am on Apr, 24 2008

who- an eternally hopeful dreamer that longs to find heaven in the middle of hell… hair pinned-up in a messy pony, dark blue skinny jeans, 30th Anniversary mu-delta tee, blk ny&co flip flops … i need to have on my mint-julip mask on too for real. i do that tonight..
what- a whole bunch of stuff… i’m getting things organized ok?

when- 3:13pm
where- dining room table with my gigantic cup of ginger tea.

first, i can NOT believe those damn cops got acquitted of killing sean bell… it’s kinda sad because in these kinds of situations, i tend to feel that [eventually] justice will NOT be served. the system is just so unfair that it is UNreal to me. i can’t even believe this kind of shit is allowed to go on. now i see first hand what kinda shit prompts rebellions and revolutions, cuz this shit HERE??? is UNreal. *sigh* all i can do is pray for his family to be strong and focused and find another way to hang those bastards by their balls.

second, i have to talk about the whole light-skin / dark-skin [good/bad hair] thing. i can’t even believe that we are still in this cotton-pickin’, slave master-driven mentality? i find it incomprehensible that some people actually think that just because they are light and bright, they are suddenly better than their more chocolate counterparts. not only that, but you have millions of brown people that believe they are less-than just because they’re not ‘light-skinned and wavy’.. oh HELL NO.

i had to grow up on both sides of the spectrum. when i was young- i was the outcast. the african ‘booty scratcher’, the alien, the ugliest person on the planet. THEN - as i blossomed and grew into my rather large features - ALL of the sudden it was ‘oh elbie, you’re so pretty’; ’oh- you’re exotic’; ‘your complexion’ this; ’your hair’ that…. ’oh elbie, you’re not really black cuz you have a little nose and pretty hair’ … ”he only dates white girls but you should talk to him cuz you’re not really black”

*screeeeeeeeachhh*

hold UP… did you really say that to me??? are u people kidding? like being black is some sort of boobie door prize? i got news bitches… i got BIG news. i’m from AFRICA.. you’ve heard of it right? you know, big continent, lotsa countries, BLACK people…. ??

idiots man.

black is bEautifuL and it is ALL ME.

i’m so tired of y’all..

third, about my health & beauty tips….

i am currently working on organizing my blog so it can be easily accessible and you can get to the good stuff quickly. until then, you will have to deal with my organized chaos. thanks.

stay tuned

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Apr

22

2008

tHe.prEsent.iS.a.gIft

Written by eLbie in zEn at 10:25 pm on Apr, 22 2008

who- a grateful and glowing soul that can’t help but profusely thank the sun and air for existing.
what- please don’t waste time on the negative….!!!!

when- 11:27 pm

where- at my homie’s spot having tea & cookies …

so today, i heard about this horrible accident that happened in jessup, md today. *sigh* it was during the early morning rush hour and 4 people lost their lives. it made me stop & pray for the families and hope that they will get the strength to get past such a tragic loss.

i couldn’t help but bow down in silence and be overcome by the power of our precious time on this planet. as the living beings we see in the mirror everyday. do we even care that we have this life? do we realize that tomorrow is never a good time to start anything? those people didn’t know that their time would be cut so short but they are still gone… with no more tomorrows. ever

*chills*

all i can say is i am grateful for this life. i hope you are too. at the end of the day- nothing [and i mean nothing] really matters more than the fact that you are able to be alive and breathing and have blood circulating thru your body with absolutely NO help from you whatsoever. is that not amazing?

took me too long to realize this shit here… better late than never.

.:gOd.bLess:.

stay tuned for natural skin & bEauty tips… also- how i relax when stuff gets to be too much..

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Apr

20

2008

i.LOvE.mUsic

Written by eLbie in zEn at 5:27 pm on Apr, 20 2008

who- an optimistic young lady that is in touch with her abilities to turn desires into reality. wearing black n white marilyn monroe long-sleeve tee with a long pink string of ‘pearls’
what- shows i went to this week- estelle & shawty-Lo.

when- 7:04pm

where- at home watchin’ Ray on FX.

ok so, last week i had fun at a couple of shows in the dc area… first i will speak on the estelle show. for those that don’t know who she is, she is John Legend’s talented new artist from London. it was at Zanzibar this past Tuesday on the sw waterfront in dc. very cool venue. the event was sponsored by Bailey’s. i went with my very dear friend/FABmanager, Ro of BBL. [no we didn't plan to dress alike AT ALL- aren't we cute tho?? great minds!] she was invited as a guest of estelle’s DJ, DJ Smasherelly. a gracious and wonderful host he was. we walked right in and got nothing but VIPlove. i [heart] londoners. once she got on stage, miss lady killed it. she was very personal with the audience and often times called out individual people for not clapping with her or moving side-to-side as she had instructed. very cute and eclectic outfit. i loved that she wasn’t conforming to any mass opinion of beauty, she just does her own thing… she sang songs from her new album, shine [that is now available on itunes]. ofcourse me and Ro were SUPER excited when she played our favorite song, American boy… it is SOOOOOOO hot! Kanye did his thing with that track for REAL! overall, it was a dope show and there were also some heavy-hitters in the house like John Legend, Brian Cox, and Chucky Thompson. great night.

—– now comes the rowdy stuff —–

ok- then on thursday. i decided to go outside of my comfort zone and go to a show involving somebody named shawty-lo… ok i called him ’shorty-low’ but- yeah- HIM. LoL… this was also another last minute thing that i was given VIP tickets to. but the entrance to this venue wasn’t as smooth as my experience on Tuesday. [ugh!] go FIGURE. can i tell you about the mostly-naked groupies that were outside looking at me like i was COO-COO cuz i had on jeans, a t-shirt, and some damn boots?? honey let me tell u!!!

ok. how bootleg is it that you come to a club dressed in about 6 square inches of clothing and some hooker heels; booty, and titty ALL out; and you STILL can’t pass the line and get in the club. *sigh*…

but yes honey- after some chirps between guards and calling the club manager out [10 minutes later] the velvet ropes opened up for my t-shirt wearing ass and i looked back at them like ‘mm mm mm’ as they continued to scramble and gamble outside.. chiiiiiile please put some clothes on! dang!!!!

so, i get in there and the manager dude is guiding me upstairs into the vip section. ummmmm… i thought the VIP section ‘posed to have some space and ROOM to lounge. not here honey. the entourages were in full effect tonight. i was lucky to have had some big brother types [one of them was 6 foot 9!!!] that made sure i didn’t get trampled. i stood up on the couch the whole night and ignored the bouncer that put his flashlight on me and told me to get down… get down to WHERE???? do you NOT see that there is NO other room for me..?? shit!!!

people were live and in FULL effect do you hear me???? all i can do was stand there with my glass of pineapple juice, hope i didn’t spill it on 6′9”, and take my phone out to video the craziness…. i mean- even shawty-lo’s body guards looked helpless… ok. i can’t get the dumb video footage into the right format. oh well… but trust me when i tell you… at one point or 2, i was very afraid for my safety. the tension seemed really thick as if people were just WAITING for something to pop off. i was not in the mood ok?

i don’t have time.

thank goodness the positive chi won the battle cuz i made it home safe and sound.

for those that are following along, here are a couple of my favorite quotes from chapter 5 of Eckhart Tolle’s book:   this chapter is about the human nature of wanting to be unhappy and how we will seek negativity in others to subconsciously fuel our own negative feelings. we all have this nature inside of us. at best- it lies dormant… at worst- it comes out throwing jabs.

“The pain-body is an addiction to unhappiness.”

“It is not so much that you cannot stop your train of negative thoughts, but that you don’t want to. This is because the pain-body at that time is living through you, pretending to be you. “

“Most pain-bodies want to both inflict and suffer pain, but some are predominately either perpetrators or victims. “

“In intimate relationships, pain-bodies are often clever enough to lie low until you start living together and preferably have signed a contract committing yourself to be with this person for the rest of your life.” [this is actually my most WOW quote of the chapter]



next on e-log: beauty regimens that you can do at home and feel like you went to the spa.. how i had to force myself to pamper me!

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Apr

19

2008

-chivaLry.is.dEad-

Written by eLbie in zEn at 3:34 pm on Apr, 19 2008

who- a confused child of God, that is trying to figure out what happened to the old days when it was considered SEXY as hell to show an elbow or an ankle.
what- the law of diminishing returns

when- 4:52 pm

where- in my room….

pardon me for the irateness that is about to come out in this blog but DAMN… -this is a 911 blog- i done heard it all y-all. i mean i am so serious when i tell you that people are WILD as hell!!! do you hear me?? WILD.

so let me tell you about THIS shit. keep in mind that this whole story happened in the span of 3 days.

a very good friend of mine, we will call her super.sex [tell you why later], came across some brand new shit. boooy i tell YOU. she randomly met a guy at an industry event and initially brushed him off. *HOLD UP* the only way to really get to the point is the short version.

ready?

they met. exchanged e-mail addys, he romanced her with some of the most beautiful language either one of us has EVER read, i mean he came on STRONG and with his A game on tight, insisted she fly 8 hours to see him, the more she politely resisted- the harder he got.

and i mean that literally. o yeah- he told her aaaaall about it and included info on how he took care of it on the SOLO tip the night before.

it started getting too hot for e-mail so they finally got offline and spoke on the phone.

he got even harder. and she liked the shit too. after all, she is super.sex right? riiiiiiiight.

then came more sweet words that described things about her that she didn’t even know existed!

she was turned on so much at this point, that she was actually considering taking that flight. which leads me to her nick name ’super.sex’- to explain how sexual and NASTY this girl is. she has been accused time and time again of oozing sex just for NO reason. [but that wasn't enough for old boy - o NOOOOOOO]

okay so here comes the kicker. in all his clarity and honesty, he proceed to tell her that not only does he insist that she travel for 8 hours to see him, BUT he also insists that they partake in anal sex complete with a very nice [and cheap] semen facial. [yeah u read that right] because that is what he ‘desires’

*faints*

what in theeee samHELL??????? ok. now i know he has the gift of word usage and shit but DAMN, is that all it takes these days to bang somebody’s back out, fukk them in the ass, AND conclude it with a facial???????????? are u people JOKING???? oh -hell-to-the-naw…..

thats just NASTY. i’m sorry. i mean come ON people…. i am a very liberated child and i DO believe in pure unadulterated LUST… buterrrummmmmmmmmmmm sweetie….baby… honey-bunches-of-oats…. just because you have a somewhat extended vocabulary, pretty brown skin, a record deal, and clever ways, does not [i repeat- does NOT] mean you are a shoo-in for the ultimate pornographic experience…. not with super.sex.. honey.

what’s really deep is that its purely a power thing. he [for real] couldn’t take all of her sexuality just existing out there and not being somehow possessed [and ultimately disrespected/minimized] by him. people are funny like that. they like something ONLY if it can be theirs… well honey- i got news.

SHIT! can we at least be under the ILLUSION that we are being courted??? how can you say such delicate words of admiration- just to finish it off with “nah- baby, if i can’t TAKE the ass and treat you like a loveslavewhore, this isn’t gonna work.”

woooooooooooow.

thats deep.

all that good talkin’….. and now look: it’s just him + his hand.

poetic justice indeed.

sing it to ‘em PINK.

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Apr

17

2008

don’t be a groupie!!!!

Written by eLbie in zEn at 6:56 pm on Apr, 17 2008

who- a highly motivated and overly girly sun-worshipper that has been having entirely WAY too much fun today. for NO reason. i have on some army green cargo pants from old navy i think… white dirty royalty baby tee [cool & dre's new clothing line]
what- be careful what you wish for…

when- 9:37 pm

where- in my sister’s room

ok.. so i was talking to one of my home boys last night and it got me to thinking about some thangs. see, he is a rather young and affluent black business man that started a very successful business at the age of 21 and now at the age of 24 is well on his way to millionaire-dom. not your average huh? right.

and because he is so young and busy, a ‘regular’ dating life has been rather hard for him. he normally finds himself with a scrub ass broad that has her hand out for his coins. needless to say, he’s been praying for ladies on the more ambitious/successful side of the spectrum.

-be careful what you wish for honey- cuz you never know what bullshit it can come with. ok?

so now he is dating a much older multi-million dollar home realtor [with an 18 year old child] and let me tell you- the grass ain’t greener. now that he sees how the other half is living, he is turned off…. GO FIGURE! isn’t life funny like that? just when you think you have it all figured out- BAM! here comes an upside-down, swirly, curve ball.

yea, so he is blown right about now because the girl is super bougie and out of touch with anything humble and grounded. not only that, he NOW finds himself feeling like HE is the scrub and he has to ‘keep up’ with miss fab diva in order to avoid feeling less-than.

not a good look. i mean how you gonna go from avoiding the groupies, to being endangered of turning INTO one. f*ck that!!! i told him, “honey!!! please do NOT let another human being make you forget that you are FABULOUS. please consider the possibility that this lady is FLOSSING her money now -only because- it’s all brand NEW to her. by the time you’re her age [in 13 years] .. you will NOT be pressed like that. ok? so get it together!”

anywho- it brought me to the conclusion that we should never seek out a new relationship based on something we did NOT like about our previous one. the chi will just be all wrong honey. like- you would be looking from a place of despair and desperation as opposed to a place of peace and overstanding.

give yourself TIME and space to exorcise all the demons of the old before you venture out into the new…. ok lovies??? -thanks.

now- let me go and get me some tea before i have a mini-fit over here..

next up on e-Log: how i almost got trampled at the shorti-lo ‘concert’ [is that how u even spell his name??? chile ...don't get me to lyin']

carry on!

edit- shawty-lo *ahem*

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