who- an optimistic young lady that is in touch with her abilities to turn desires into reality. wearing black n white marilyn monroe long-sleeve tee with a long pink string of ‘pearls’
what- shows i went to this week- estelle & shawty-Lo.
when- 7:04pm
where- at home watchin’ Ray on FX.
ok so, last week i had fun at a couple of shows in the dc area… first i will speak on the estelle show. for those that don’t know who she is, she is John Legend’s talented new artist from London. it was at Zanzibar this past Tuesday on the sw waterfront in dc. very cool venue. the event was sponsored by Bailey’s. i went with my very dear friend/FABmanager, Ro of BBL. [no we didn't plan to dress alike AT ALL- aren't we cute tho?? great minds!] she was invited as a guest of estelle’s DJ, DJ Smasherelly. a gracious and wonderful host he was. we walked right in and got nothing but VIPlove. i [heart] londoners. once she got on stage, miss lady killed it. she was very personal with the audience and often times called out individual people for not clapping with her or moving side-to-side as she had instructed. very cute and eclectic outfit. i loved that she wasn’t conforming to any mass opinion of beauty, she just does her own thing… she sang songs from her new album, shine [that is now available on itunes]. ofcourse me and Ro were SUPER excited when she played our favorite song, American boy… it is SOOOOOOO hot! Kanye did his thing with that track for REAL! overall, it was a dope show and there were also some heavy-hitters in the house like John Legend, Brian Cox, and Chucky Thompson. great night.
—– now comes the rowdy stuff —–
ok- then on thursday. i decided to go outside of my comfort zone and go to a show involving somebody named shawty-lo… ok i called him ’shorty-low’ but- yeah- HIM. LoL… this was also another last minute thing that i was given VIP tickets to. but the entrance to this venue wasn’t as smooth as my experience on Tuesday. [ugh!] go FIGURE. can i tell you about the mostly-naked groupies that were outside looking at me like i was COO-COO cuz i had on jeans, a t-shirt, and some damn boots?? honey let me tell u!!!
ok. how bootleg is it that you come to a club dressed in about 6 square inches of clothing and some hooker heels; booty, and titty ALL out; and you STILL can’t pass the line and get in the club. *sigh*…
but yes honey- after some chirps between guards and calling the club manager out [10 minutes later] the velvet ropes opened up for my t-shirt wearing ass and i looked back at them like ‘mm mm mm’ as they continued to scramble and gamble outside.. chiiiiiile please put some clothes on! dang!!!!
so, i get in there and the manager dude is guiding me upstairs into the vip section. ummmmm… i thought the VIP section ‘posed to have some space and ROOM to lounge. not here honey. the entourages were in full effect tonight. i was lucky to have had some big brother types [one of them was 6 foot 9!!!] that made sure i didn’t get trampled. i stood up on the couch the whole night and ignored the bouncer that put his flashlight on me and told me to get down… get down to WHERE???? do you NOT see that there is NO other room for me..?? shit!!!
people were live and in FULL effect do you hear me???? all i can do was stand there with my glass of pineapple juice, hope i didn’t spill it on 6′9”, and take my phone out to video the craziness…. i mean- even shawty-lo’s body guards looked helpless… ok. i can’t get the dumb video footage into the right format. oh well… but trust me when i tell you… at one point or 2, i was very afraid for my safety. the tension seemed really thick as if people were just WAITING for something to pop off. i was not in the mood ok?
i don’t have time.
thank goodness the positive chi won the battle cuz i made it home safe and sound.
for those that are following along, here are a couple of my favorite quotes from chapter 5 of Eckhart Tolle’s book: this chapter is about the human nature of wanting to be unhappy and how we will seek negativity in others to subconsciously fuel our own negative feelings. we all have this nature inside of us. at best- it lies dormant… at worst- it comes out throwing jabs.
“The pain-body is an addiction to unhappiness.”
“It is not so much that you cannot stop your train of negative thoughts, but that you don’t want to. This is because the pain-body at that time is living through you, pretending to be you. “
“Most pain-bodies want to both inflict and suffer pain, but some are predominately either perpetrators or victims. “
“In intimate relationships, pain-bodies are often clever enough to lie low until you start living together and preferably have signed a contract committing yourself to be with this person for the rest of your life.” 
[this is actually my most WOW quote of the chapter]
[this is actually my most WOW quote of the chapter]next on e-log: beauty regimens that you can do at home and feel like you went to the spa.. how i had to force myself to pamper me!
LD
Comment made on April 24, 2008 @ 5:09 pm
“living through you, pretending to be you” - damn. Damn-damn.
Anonymous
Comment made on April 25, 2008 @ 1:19 pm
You go with your jeans,t-shirt,and boots girl.Do ya thing homie.Get ya be fly on.And you really typed ”chiiiiiile”lol.You rock.
Sincere