what- breathe before you speak
when- 2:39pm
where- JV offices
— this blog is about reacting —
ever wonder y u have so much negative stuff in your life? no matter which way you turn - it’s always SOMEthing… right? ever think that MAYbe the shit has something to do with you? y-o-u.. the central force of y-o-u-r world?
most people i have come across in general seem to be reactors. people that operate only AFTER some outside force has done [or not done] something. always waiting to react to a loved one because they have no clue what else to do.
in less apparent ways, i realize that i was the same way. i depended on another to make or break my day. and then got mad when shit hit the fan. what sense does that really make? i kept asking myself, shouldn’t i do my best to have a good day regardless of who is going thru pms, or just wants to piss me off?
it is so true when people say ‘misery loves company’ . i have come to realize that when a negative thought comes into my mind, it seeks for company, to fuel it… it then does everything in its power to multiply itself into some idiotic reaction of rage, anger, jealousy, fear, whatever… just to bring somebody else into it’s miserable bed.
next time you find yourself in some bullshit and don’t know how you got there- ask yourself- what kind of energy have i been putting out? what has been my vibe? my aura? my vibrational frequency….? how fast do i react when i don’t like a particular thing or situation? and finally- is my reaction one that can ACTUALLY get me to where i need to be?? -it usually ends up that y-o-u were being some kind of asshole in the whole process.
most of the time, our negative reaction to adverse conditions does just the OPPOSITE. it makes shit worse and we end up in a tangled web that becomes increasingly hard to get out of.
i used to be so quick to react and snap back. my friends all know me as the ‘feisty one’. there have been times where we’ve been out and i tongue-lashed someone so bad that my friends were actually afraid that the dude would go up TOP on my ass..or rather- OUR ass.
i think that since i grew up being the quiet agreeable little bookworm-in-the-corner, it was attractive to me to be in this perceived position of power. now it was me that had the last word and left people speechless. and i liked it. no, LOVED it. that is until i received the memo that it wasn’t a powerful position at all. presence is more powerful… ultimately, silence says so much more than a bunch of yapping… think about it.
so i decided to do a trial run with my first potential assistant and we spent a few hours doing some spring cleaning… i had been runnin around so much these past couple of months, [since January] that my feng shui was NOT in order honey. OK?? so we began the process of de-toxifying my environment and we were horribly efficient. even with the unexpected phonecall i got inviting me to the estelle show at zanzibar… only 3 hours left to finish my work AND get ready but ofcourse i’ll go! as for mr. potential, i did have high hopes for him cuz he is very cool, but it looks like he needs something that is actually a real job as opposed to an internship. it aint easy being me i tell you… oh well! the search continues… and i will keep logging the updates.
i also went to tar-jay to stock up on some of my favorite things [to be blogged about very soon] and discovered that as the weather gets a bit warmer, the deodorant i normally use- is NOT kickin it like it needs to. what the hell??? do i feel moisture??? oh HELL NO. this aint never happened to me before!!! i KNOW i put that stuff on… but, something had to give cuz ummm i don’t do SWEAT. even if it smells like the jasmine orient.. ok??? so after i thought about it for a while, i had a light bulb moment! before secret got all sparkly, i used to really like the teen spirit collection. especially the one called ‘pink crush’ - i mean come ON! the name alone is adorable enough to pick up. so i did just that. and i am right back to being dry and sexy, in the underarm department. don’t worry-the name is rather deceptive cuz a teenager, i am NOT anymore… try it out!!! it smells great.
stay warm & fuzzy….
