who- someone trying to recognize herself again.. wtf is going on?
what- is romance really hopeless?
when- 7:38 am
where- an undisclosed location in the bed wrapped up in a sheet and looking at something GORGEOUS.
sometimes in life you are faced with something you SWORE you would never have anything to do with. here you are all comfortable in your own little story with all it’s rules and regulations, and all of the sudden- WHAM- here comes the exact opposite to everything you been proclaiming. ain’t that some shit? i mean, i’m not so caught up in my ego that i would turn my back to this,… this… this um - glitch in the matrix. BUT i am still a bit taken aback by the sweet irony of life.
yeah- i am being rather cryptic because i don’t want a whole bunch of strangers in my personal business and thangs. but don’t worry, i will still complete my thoughts.
ok so- here it is in a nutshell. in the past 5 years or so… i have turned from the endlessly hopeless romantic i was born to be into a somewhat cynical spirit. one that has sort of lost hope in the possibility that people still have loyal bones in their bodies. i couldn’t help but look at committed relationships/marriage thru a cheating curve glass. i figured that since everybody ends up doing SOMEthing shady, why have any real hope that they WON’T? i know, i know… kinda a little bit on the negative side. but it worked for me. it made perfect sense as far as i was concerned. shit- it still does.
a lot of it comes from the fact that, i don’t consider myself to be your ‘average’ … ever since i can remember, i do most everything unconventionally. i refuse to be defined and put into cute little boxes so that i’m easier to ’swallow’ for people. it isn’t my business on this earth to make others comfortable. i am who i am. if you don’t like it- get the fukk ON. period.
probably why i find such solace in solitude. i’m just too damn grown to explain myself to nay a mufukka. is that bitchy?? harsh? rude? oh well…. i sincerely doubt i’m looking for approval from any of you, you, or YOU.
i guess i was supposed to conclude with a ‘happily ever after’ … um NO. not quite as yet. it all remains to be seen.
i remember reading somewhere that : ‘’solitude is the price of greatness” …
WELL.
they said it.
i didn’t.
the visual poets society
Comment made on July 1, 2008 @ 11:01 pm
the end of
2007
i ended
a relationship
swore
to myself
im done
because
this shit
shouldnt be
a struggle
but
its not
in my nature
im a dreamer
and
i just know
my cinderella
is out here
i feel you though
but
remember this
whats special
if everyone
were special
h……………..
Sanshine aka beSty
Comment made on July 2, 2008 @ 5:25 pm
fukk a cynical- i call it wiSdom! lol. tempering ones hEart with rEaSon need NOT detract from ones hopeless devotion to romance & love. BUT dat nuh mean seh wi fi gwaan like eeediate tru we “love” smaddy! *kiss teet*
i’ll leave u with my HS senior quote (which i STILL love today):
“If I have WISDOM in my LOVE
And in my SOUL am FREE,
Angels alone that soar above
Enjoy such liberty.”
-Richard Lovelace (emphasis added)
nuff said.
greg soundz
Comment made on July 4, 2008 @ 11:00 am
“they said, i didn’t.” LOL
giiiiiiiiiiirl you are too much!!
Anonymous
Comment made on July 6, 2008 @ 12:27 am
I definately feel where you’re coming from homie.However without hope we often end up limiting ourselves to the bs out there.I’m familiar with that quote also ”Solitude is the price of greatness”I have no clue where I saw it at but I think they got it so twisted because solitude doesn’t always have to be the price of it.I believe if you allow it to be that way that’s what you’ll get but if you open to more or have hope…you’ll allow yourself to recieve more greatness.
Peace & Respect
Sincere