fuLL mOon & mErcury …

who- an ego-maniac

what- u know u’re sacrificing too much when others begin to do it too…

when- 9:00am

where- 95 North….

[ok- so thank u to my wonderful friend gregory that helped me see that mercury is NOT in retrograde right now. it just returned to normal ‘grade’ on the 4th of july] 

-wow. let me just tell you. this past week, the planets have been doing a NUMBER on my little life down here on earth. i mean DAMN! there was just a plethora of unexpected events that came swooping down and shake things up a bit. 

everything is wonderful again of course, but i can’t help but think and analyze the nature of humans…  us earthlings. 

it is amazing to me, and it will never cease to amaze me, the degree of abuse we will take just to preserve the familiar. to hold on to something that you have become accustomed to the point that you don’t even know how to begin life without that person, place, or thing. every time you think about it, you get this sick feeling in your stomach and your heart starts beating all fast like you’re about to have a heart attack and shit. yet- ALL THE WHILE- you are trying your damnedest to hold on to the exact cause of all that pain and uncomfortableness. 

amazing. 

what IS that? it has to have a name ‘cuz i see it all over the place. all around me. in many shapes and sizes. 

the way i see it, at least in my life, i do such a good job at sacrificing myself for others [and i do it happily, expecting nothing in return], i inspire others to do the same exact thing… sacrifice me!

wtf??? shouldn’t the sacrificial lamb be nurtured and replenished? i mean unless you’re just trying to kill the poor baby.  but why?  that’s not very nice and God don’t like ugly.

remember that. 

but of course, the ultimate responsibility lies in the person that keeps constantly choosing to go this torturous route in life. there is an equally available option of stopping the shit immediately. and i mean QUICK. it ain’t easy but it is, in fact, simple.   

found this online:

The key issue here is one of focus. Mercury’s retro phase tends to bring unforeseen changes and blockages, but the aggravation and frustration that many of us experience during these periods is often due to our own inability to roll with the punches. Is this due to our ego-fixation? Mercury sets out to restructure our thinking processes and for many of us this is painful and frustrating.   [astrologycom.com]

apparently, my ego is a lot bigger than i thought.