so much to say in my little entry for the day.
so many emotions that have been going thru my little body these past few weeks.
1st of all- i had to pull out of my show the night before due to the promoter telling me (for the whole week) that i didn’t sell enough tickets and due to that, the show is ‘going to fail” [insert dumbfounded face]
WTF???? u are the PROMOTER and there are 5 headliners and, it’s MY fault that tickets haven’t sold??????? me??? the opening act. little eLbie with my little myspace page with 9k friends… chile- let me tell you. that muthafukka had me going thru the motions of stress something TERRIBLE. i had to get out before he killed my whole morale. not to mention my team of 5 musicians and singers that i didn’t have the heart to drag along with me on that broke down ass [emotional]roller coaster of his. no one has time.
what else- oh yes. RIP- Deborah Haskins [and Bernie Mac, and Isaac Hayes]… my good friend’s mother that passed away on Saturday night [her dad passed less than 6 months ago] … May God give my friend the strength and courage to handle the burdens that life has brought for her to carry. amEn.
now on to the juicy stuff…..
been kinda sorta liking somebody, but i’m not exactly sure how seriously to take this person. . . to be honest- i don’t want to take anybody seriously right now. i am NOT in the mood for mere mortals falling short of my goddess-like expectations. i mean would YOU be in the mood for that shit???
let me go and beautify- tomorrow is J*Davey at SOBs with Gregory [who put me on to them], my beSty, and my neffy!!!!!! and i MUST look FAB dammit. y’all know i don’t get out much.
been SUPER busy, tired, anxious, excited, angry, not to mention SLEEEEEEPY. recorded a song with gregory but it was such a teaser. we were on a super tight time budget but we now KNOW, that we must do more songs in the very near future. also, my performance is tomorrow ! i’m very blessed that i even get to do this and have the support system that i have. thank you!!!!
i will be back on here regularly starting next week!!!!!
smooooches!
okay it’s been way too long… and i’m changing shit around up in here…
lotsa wonderful stuff going on. i am so blessed to be able to do the things that i love. not everybody can say that. sorry to be corny. but i just been feeling some kind way lately. not really lately. more like in the past 2 years or so. there have been so many twists and turns. thank God i made it thru!!!
had a great shoot with bff/photog extraordinaire yesterday. thank you to everybody that helped make that happen. LOVE YOU LADIES! its so amazing that i’m even allowed to have this much fun!!! :)
anywho- i have a story i’ve been meaning to speak on…
the other day, i was at a friend’s house and it was a sunny day with a slight overcast. as we were chillin and watching cnn, i saw a quick but bright flashing light come thru the window. it almost looked like a really strong flash on a camera. soon after the light, i heard thunder. oh shoot! that was lightning??.. but wait, isn’t the sun out!? i just had to get up and look.
so i went to the window and saw it. one very dark, small [and very lonely] storm cloud just hanging in there all by its lonesome. defiant amongst all the clear skies and sunshine. for the next 40 minutes, this cloud protested non- stop. it kept thundering, lightning, and raining. as i watched in amazement, it suddenly occurred to me: ‘that cloud is me sometimes!!!!’
i could relate to the powerful emotion that was pouring out of that dark cloud, as much as i could relate to the immoveable force of the sun …
yaaaaay SUN!
[but, ofcourse i would never forget about the moon]
so much to say in my little entry for the day.
