[currently] working from home, making up a working to-do list, and organizing my november/my life
this weekend was great. i had a wonderful opportunity to inspire someone and it felt good.
without getting too personal, i will say here that i am a bit annoyed with myself. now don’t get it twisted, i’m still FAB and full of zEn… however, this weekend taught me a little bit about being a bit tighter with the freedom i allow myself. being your own boss has it’s perks but at the same time it has its challenges as well.
let us start with the positives, as i always do. it is a blessing to be able to survive and stay above water [most of time] by utilizing your own resources and having the opportunity to have your own small, but fairly successful, family business. it is also cool not to have immediate people to report to, or worry about looking over your shoulder, etc…
this is where most people from the other side of the street say … “mmm, MUST be NICE”
it is, but only sometimes.
u know, just like your paycheck [that is guaranteed to be the same amount every 2 weeks] is NICE.
true, it would be nicer if it increased once in a while, but what if that also meant that it had to decrease just as much. all the while, you would still have to maintain the ship and keep it afloat cuz nobody gives a damn that your client is 6 months late paying their invoice. it aint easy dammit, and sometimes it damn sure aint NICE.
but to me, a freedom that is much worth the struggle.
now- upon my wonderful relocation to the city of my dreams, i have not been too on-point with setting a schedule for myself. been doing what i do best… indulging. yup that’s me. tap into a pleasurable source and repeat. and keep repeating. and it’s almost like the universe conspires for me to keep on indulging. ugh!!!
i need to be able to keep multiple priorities in their proper places - up top. just like i tell everyone around me, i need to jump out there and take a few calculated [sometimes emotional] risks in order to get to a higher, more productive place.
right now [covering my cousin's boutique] i’m listening to an older but very stylish lady holding 5 pieces of louis vuitton luggage saying “i have ten of thousands of dollars worth in luggage but not a dime to my name!!!!” … i smiled at her transparent honesty and know that i have been there before. so much STUFF but nothing for REAL to show for it. i don’t wanna go back there. we as black women don’t need to be there period. we got too much work to do out here to be caught up in flashing lights.
imma stop blabbing. i meant to post this blog yesterday.
boo - on me.
here’s another video… oh yeah- i write songs too… and before you go being all critical and say -this bitch can’t sing… just keep in mind- i’m an artist, and i’m sensitive about my shit [e.badu]
~(smOochEs)~
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Sincere
Comment made on October 28, 2008 @ 2:28 pm
Great Blog.
I am loving the video too.You should definately do a track or a few like that.it suits u soo much.
SANG Elbie SANG!!!
I’m totally a fan.
Blue Light
Comment made on October 28, 2008 @ 3:12 pm
Well alright now!
eLbie
Comment made on October 28, 2008 @ 3:38 pm
thank you sincere.. you are the best!!! u too AJ!
thevisualpoetssociety
Comment made on October 28, 2008 @ 5:45 pm
elbie
lovely song
i like the
breakdown
towards
the end
thats what makes
a nice
slow groove
im waiting
for my
preview
of the album
h……………………………