something ‘artistic’ …

ok so i’m sorry that i’m still on this topic but something just been coming over me these past few weeks and i gotta get it out. i just have to keep going and say that at the end of the day, the way we treat eachother shapes who we are and more importantly, how we treat others.

if you’re a cheating bastard, chances are, a lot of women that have managed to survive your jaws of hell, now think that everybody is like your evil ass. and if somebody new does something [totally innocent] that is even REMOTELY similar to anything that you’ve done, they get cursed out for it and get steel walls thrown at their faces.

i’m just SAYING. is that even fair???

*deep sigh* …. nam-yo-ho-rhen-go-kyo ….

all i’m saying is, please stop creating menaces to society. stop turning hopeful hearts into paranoid meanies that attack innocent people for no reason. think about it.

a serial killer is that way because he/she was SEVERLY abused. SEVERLY.

*drops mic*

i’m sooooo tired. didn’t sleep at ALL last night.

first of all i gotta say, mercury is out of retrograde today honies!!! wooooot! thank GOODness because it was really rough this time around. sheesh!!

but i’m not gonna get into that right now because this post is about cheating. i recently read something on twitter that really disturbed my spirit. click here if you want to read for yourself basically it’s swizz beats’ wife [soon to be ex]mashonda, talking to alicia keys about how she wrecked her happy home. *sigh* first of all i am not one to blog about celebs and stuff just CUZ. but often times, out of the blue, pop culture does something noteworthy and groundbreaking. and i must speak on it.

anywho- as i was reading mashonda’s message, i couldn’t help but feel a very sickening pain in the pi of my stomach. i mean, DAMN, how must she be feeling right now? that just hurts to even think about. to be cheated on and THEN to have to read in a PUBLIC forum like TWITTER about how ‘in love’ you two are and how it’s better to go for the ’spark’ than to be ’smart’.

blink-blink

are you kidding me right now??? i mean i love u, alicia, but this is a bit disturbing. even for my liberal-minded little ass. the betrayal, and sneakiness of it all really sickens me to the core of my being. seriously? disgust. the fact that people feel entitled to do that to others is really beyond me and frankly, it’s the cause of half the violence in the world today. . . if not more.

cheating.

i mean if you want to be single. just be single. if you want to do whatever you want and not be ‘questioned’ as to your whereabouts. call when you want to, stop by when you feel the urge. it’s cool. it’s aaaaaall good. jut give me the mutha effing courtesy of telling me that we are on that program. let a bitch ENJOY the program with you.

don’t be selfish. cuz you’re DEFINITELY not gonna like it when i am. blooop.

chillin in my bed ALL DAY TODAY!!!

hi honies!!!

i was chilling with boo yesterday and we got to talking about dreams. i have a lot of them and i can admit to the ‘world’ that my dreams have sometimes led me astray. often times, i thought that things were gonna go one way and of course, they ended up going in the totally opposite direction. but have i allowed that to discourage me? nope. not at all.

don’t get me wrong. i have my bad days. days that i wish i had a 9-5 just like everyone else that got a steady paycheck every 2 weeks. there are times when i get so stressed out about bills and hate chasing people down for MY money. there are other times when i get so angry at the fact that so many people hate on me instead of helping me. it does have it’s price but, ultimately, i know that the path i have chosen for myself, is the only right one for me.

i much rather hustle, scramble, and gamble than be stuck behind somebody’s desk, in somebody’s building, at somebody ELSE’S multi-million dollar company. no thanks. just not how i am cut out. when you hire me, you hire my COMPANY and you will be INVOICED and you will pay that invoice. plain and simple honies. i wont have it any other way. the hateration only motivates me to dream even HARDER and work even more relentlessly.

with that said, i want to ask you for a small favor. below is an old video by paris hilton. the song is called ‘nothing in this world’ and i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE the message in this video. please watch the WHOLE thing and pay attention to the words that are displayed throughout.

so what it’s super corny and cheesey- don’t judge me. just watch & love it!! thanks.

*cheese* i love you!

blogging from bed & giving you face.

we all have seen it and a lot of times, we run away from it screaming. not me, honey. in my old age of 32 25 22 [oh! u get the idea] i have learned to embrace darkness. in all of it’s gloomy and tortured confusion.

i have learned that darkness HAS to exist. not all the time, but it [at the very least] has to set the backdrop for the bright light that is sure to make another appearance, at SOME point.

when stuff gets really bleak and i feel alone and down, i have learned that it is OK. something comes over me like a calming blanket. it’s ok to be lost, confused, sad, angry, or whatever your journey brings you to. just know that it is only temporary. just like you and me. just like life.

so with that- know that i love you my honies and today is a gift that you should take FULL advantage of!!!!! thank you for reading me and uplifting WITH me. bloooop!!

me right now at my favorite holistic bookstore getting my zen on.

im sure i’ve talked about this topic a million times in the many years that i have been blogging.  it should be common sense but apparently, there are a lot of people that just DONT get it.

for example. if you confide in a person about a situation you are going through with ANOTHER person, does it make sense for that person [months later] to discuss what you discussed with them TO that person and not tell you anything about it???

not to me. i don’t care if i am being ‘too much’ or whatever. i don’t ask for ANYthing that i don’t freely and happily give.  if you trust me with a moment of confusion or despair in your life, i will cherish it like it happened to ME. that’s just how i operate. if you don’t operate like that, please step AWAY from me and everything that i love.

as for me, you see that smile on my face? yes honey, it’s real and that’s how my spirit feels right about now in spite of the shade, back-stabbing, and wackness that is going on.

i guess that’s why my friends are more quality and not quantity.