Written by eLbie in zEn at 4:33 am on Sep, 10 2009
like my shoes?
i do.
not sure why i’m up. but i thought i vent a little bit.
the other day, i had a break through. a major one. i had been living in fear of not having approval from folks that are [or were] very [very] close to me. it wasn’t until 2 days ago that i was able to stand up to the people in that circle and pretty much told them to take their raggedy ‘approval rating’ and stuff it where the sun don’t shine. LOL. well not ALL of them got that tea but there were a few that had it coming. it was liberating honey. i felt like i could do and accomplish ANYthing at that point. so it occurred to me like, wow, i must not have felt this way before because it feels so new and different. which means- i been missing out!!
oh yea honey cuz i am too grown to give a damn about what every tom, shirley, pam and harry think about me. [getouttahere] remember, life is too short to live it for anybody other than the one that lives in YOUR body. furthermore, it’s not fair to ask anybody to be anyone other than themselves. how can you tell them what to do with the ONE life they have? i mean wtf??
ok. i’m done with that. it just feels SO good to be fearless. i fear no one honey. i have God in my entourage. bloooooooooooooop!
with that said, i would like to give some thanks for the other people in my SMALL ‘entourage’. always holding me down and supporting me even when i do something dumb that they don’t agree with. to me, that is TRUE love and i will never complain about not having it because i have it in such abundance. those few know exactly who they are and i LOVE YOU GUYS TO DEATH.
enjoyed myself this weekend…
saw 2 of my favorite voices in ‘r&b’ … marsha ambrosious [@marshaambrosius] and faith evans. they both were beautiful to watch. humble spirits and talent that is out of this WORLD.
thank you ladies for sharing your gift and doing it so well. u better weeerk! LOL
**PLEASE NOTE THE GANGSTA** - Marsha had someone hold the mic for her when she did like an 8 minute version of “butterflies”. HONEY. i have no words for the child’s vocal chords. CHIIIIILE. anywho- just go and listen to any floetry song and holla back.
on another note- things are going very well for me. i am breaking down walls as we speak. and i’m talking, century-old BRICK walls chile. whew. it’s a tough journey but i LOVE that my spiritual journey is finally coming to fruition. after years and years of an upward and stormy climb, i finally see the other side. great feeling. very VERY empowering to not be afraid anymore. fear is a lie. there is no such thing honey, don’t be fooled.
::currently:: on the plane somewhere in between nyc and miami…
as for my new site [welcome :D] i told you i was excited!!! woooooot!!!!
—– credits —–
web design: zilla [zillasays.com] - for a very professional business ethic.
header picture make-up: arTIAstry [http://artiastrymakeup.blogspot.com] - hi honey!!!
header picture photography: ajanitruth [ajanitruth.com] - very humble and kind to work with!!
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with that off my to-do list, now i will be finishing up the structure of my online store that is coming this fall to the new elbieinc.com!!!! [i will announce the type of items that will be available when i do the official press release in about a month.]
lots of unique pieces… either designed, picked, and/or found by yours truly. *cheese*
anyone that knows me knows that i am very much into fashion. not ‘trends’ mind you… i HATE those. [i mostly rebel against them] more so- individual style. i love when someone can create ART by putting together an outfit and putting it on with confident and ’swag’ unlike anyone else. i LOVE for that. i’m very excited to be able to share one of my passions by making some pieces that i LOVE available for others to wear as well!! WOOOOOT!
Written by eLbie in zEn at 10:46 am on Sep, 4 2009
yup i sure am. just been feeling that all-to-familiar, unfamiliar, butterflies. i get them when stuff is going to make a turn in my life. a MAJOR turn. one that all the sh*t is gonna hit the fan. [but in a positive & NECESSARY way] u know the kind i’m talking about…
anywho.. i have SOOO much running around to do today, i must run. i’m sad that i can’t play with my new toy that i waited in line for 40 minutes at the post office to pick up. at least we got to take pics together.
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