i woke up to this at 7am today.
it’s from my baby, who has been in haiti since saturday [excerpt from the e-mail]
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This is crazy here…
I’ve never seen anything like it. Piles and piles of bodies all over the place.
Soooo many kids without parents. There’s absolutely nothing here. Just rocks and dead bodies.
Sooo many people injured. The whole place stinks of dead bodies.
I’ve only slept two hours so far like the rest of the people who came to aid.
What disturbs me the most is that adult haitian men are literally taking clothes and food from women and kids for themselves.
I was handing out meals and treating them at the same time to injured and uninjured people.
There was this haitian men in their 40’s, I gave him his meal, he ate it really fast and asked for more. I said only one meal for one person.
Then he saw this 4yo injured girl eating a meal, he took a rock, hit the girl on the head and stole her meal!!!
WTF?!?!?! She died instantly. I was horrified to see that. And this is just one case. These people aren’t helping eachother at all.
They are killing eachother so they can steal food and clothes, even tho they already got some.

They said, they don’t like americans and that americans owe them A LOT so we HAVE to be here and help them. They’re not thankful at all. I hate it.
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*sigh* i have no words at all really…. but ‘horror’ and ‘apocalypse’ do come to mind. happy birthday dr. king. we need your wisdom and hope today. we love and miss you. and THANK YOU for giving your LIFE to a cause at a time when the rest of your people were too scared to stand up.

ok honies. i know i went off a little bit yesterday but it was warranted and i wont apologize for it. i was teased TOO many times as a defenseless child by people that thought it was funny to clown me about what i look like and where i come from. in 2010, i will NOT be quiet about it. & whatever tacky person wants to come at me again, will hear my mouth AGAIN.
[over it]

moving right along… i still have haiti in my heart and i know the death toll is going up exponentially as the days go by without any MAJOR relief being accomplished. *looks up* i know they will get through this. rebuild. their spirit is strong and history has proven it.

had SUCH a fun night last night. rolling with the homies…. [RIP brittany murpy ]
enjoy your sunday honies…

who the HELL needs enemies????? [trying to calm down]

ok honies… how bout this tho???

first of all: let me just say that yesterday was the 102nd anniversary of the sorority that I belong to.
Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority, Incorporated. i worked my BUTT off to join this organization and worked even harder, once i joined.
Since i graduated, i haven’t been active, nor have i really kept in touch with those sorors that brought me through/came through with.

now, [unlike last year] i know i didn’t blog about the AKA anniversary, and that was CLEARLY due to the fact that, there are much MORE important things going on in the world for me to feel ‘good’ about SHIT.

so fast forward to today when i got on facebook and saw that one of my ‘big sisters’ commented on a picture that is actually very near and dear to my heart: [exhibit A]

do u know what this bitch called me?????? ~~>>>>> she had the fukkin AUDACITY to call me: ‘ivy unicef’ …

now MIND YOU- when i was in school, i already didn’t fukk with a lot of my ‘big sisters’ DUE TO rude comments that they had made about my FUKKIN ETHNICITY during a time where they had ‘power’ over me. now, 12 years LATER, this bitch comes out her face and takes me back there.

[CANT BE SERIOUS] - oh yeah, she was. sad thing is, she is ‘educated’ [as far as academics is concerned] but i guess they don’t give out doctorates in KINDNESS and EMPATHY.

this is what i have to say to that CRAP:

listen here HEFFA [and anyone else that is IGNORANT and calls people names that poke fun at WORLD SUFFERING] : my country is a KINGDOM… ya’ understand???? i am PROUD of where i came from REGARDLESS of the struggles that my country has gone through. i am a PROUD, FLAG-WAVING, ISKISTA-DANCING, card-carrying member of the ETHIOPIAN community. any problems you have regarding where i COME FROM and the BEAUTY that it EXUDES, i got the problem SOLVER bookat. research your history, DOC.

and in the words of AfrikanBoy:
‘u think u tough??? NOW, COME TO AFRICA’

today’s t.g.i.f IS still thank God i’m fabulous but *sigh* …… *tear*…. i can’t feel SO fabulous when so much is going on in other parts of the world. so much suffering. my heart is weighing heavy. i REFUSE to look at pictures so i only read press releases [SOMEtimes] it’s really too much. a nightmare. the worst kind. the kind you can’t ever wake-up from.

i do know this. [announcement! pay attention] they need more paramedics in haiti. they are trained in disaster relief and can handle the extreme conditions that plague the country. PLEASE HELP!!!! they don’t need my looser ass. all i do is write *shrug* the red cross aint taking just ANYbody. so if you’re qualified please GO!!! donating $ is wonderful but they really need man power.

ok… be blessed honies. i promise to be my usual self very soon… this whole thing just took a toll on me. don’t be sad k?

*omg this salad is to die for* hi honies.. yes, i’m eating n typing… had a crazy day. i was moody again *shrug* cranky. went off on someone random earlier cuz they CLEARLY were being manipulative and opportunistic. [in whitney voice to bobby] not todaaaaaaaaaaay…

honestly, i sometimes hate to think about how mean people can be. how selfish, raggedy, ugh. u name it. it makes me sad that human beings have the natural instinct of negativity towards others. sometimes, we don’t even mean it but we just evoke something bad and make people unhappy, ourselves included.

it’s a struggle. an uphill climb.

to smile at times like these. to keep your head up and still believe in good and positivity, when the whole world is falling apart around you.

i take nothing for granted… every night, i PROFUSELY thank God/Universe for my good fortune. here i am, getting to live the life of my dreams how i’ve always imagined it. manhattan… sleigh bed, white sheets, flatscreen, cabs to get ethiopian food, exciting business opportunities, etc.

sometimes we get so caught up in wanting more we forget to appreciate the now.. [as in] right NOW.

also known as, the present moment. it’s really all we have, regardless of what we think. nothing is guaranteed beyond what you are experiencing right at this very moment. i recognize my moment. [do i ever] and i am humbled. i will always strive to grow and evolve, but i appreciate everything that i already have.