if u only knew…

honies honies HONIES… if you only knew my daily STRUGGLES… CHILE. smh.

i’m telling you guys, you are reading the blog of an heiress to an entire kingdom. i aint lyin! i mean the shit that i have to deal with from those that call themselves -’family’ is AMAZING. u would really think i’m responsible for an entire nation out this mug.

the pressure to be perfect. the dangling of my ‘inheritance’ in my face as a way of making me succumb to strict demands. the constant badgering and critiques of the way that i was chosen [by GOD]to express myself. the ‘disappointment’ in their faces when i proudly tell them ‘i’m a freelance writer living in nyc!’ instead of ‘im a doctor married to a lawyer with 2 kids and a dog!’

i mean, need i go on??? i am not complaining… but in a sense, yes i AM!!!! i mean SHIT.

do i have to sacrifice my entire LIFE because i was ‘raised right’????
last i checked, i don’t belong to any animal herds nor am i a member of some secret cult that has a chip implanted in my shoulder. so what then?????

because i come from a ‘proud’ culture i have to bow down to it??? hell NO!!!

what about MY pride? me. a human being. with my own feelings, thoughts, and dreams. seeking my own bliss. finding it.

WHAT ABOUT THAT?????

let me tell you something: i am all for respecting my elders and things of that nature. howEVER, before anything else, i am a child of God[universe]… my life is divinely ordered and i will never… [ever ever ever ever ever EVAH] listen to the voice of a human that contradicts my divinity again.

yea, i said it. i am DIVINE. a GODess. a spiritual being that ignores the static of mere mortals. [IG NORE]

yes, honies, STATIC.

i have no time for it in my daily music of life. if you are static, *turns power switch* i turn you OFF.

*exhale* and just like that, i feel better.