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    • Jul
      15
      2010

      studio |space|

      Written by elbie in all about me, love, music at 12:31 am on Jul, 15 2010

      hi honies,
      been soooo busy. barely time to breathe i.e. WRITE. sheesh! you should see how many posts i have chillin’ in my drafts. a MESS. i have to dedicate this blog publication to my boo who said some magical words of encouragement to me. i swear, i love that child. . . <3

      ok. so, the planets are lining up slowly but surely, recording a great song with 2 great producers [dj spacey and her partner 'domino'] -- a couple months ago, i came across 'spacey' on twitter and soon realized we like the same genres of 'underground' music. soon after that, i received a track in my inbox that had me jumping out of my bed and *wiggle dance* ing all around my room. it was exactly what i'd been looking for. for, what has now become YEARS, i have been looking for a team that i can create a sound with, not just write and record songs.

      even though it was the first time i met the two, the energy was very comfortable. at first, i think my insides were a bit uncertain if i was 'good enough' to work with folks that i actually WANTED to work with. but shortly after we began, it began to feel familiar again. that unmistakable high that comes as a result of putting words and melodies together on a microphone and hearing it all played back instantly.

      *feels brand new every time*

      the song is getting a preliminary mix this week... y'all know i'm a perfectionist- so hopefully i can have it up to par enough to share in the next couple weeks! LOL. In the meantime, here is a pic snapped by spacey while i was totally oblivious and recording some harmonies.
      :)

      16371 Responsehttp://www.elbieinc.com/2010/07/studio-space/+studio+%7Cspace%7C2010-07-15+05%3A31%3A52elbie
      May
      15
      2010

      u dont know me

      Written by eLbie in all about me, hate, love at 5:55 am on May, 15 2010

      it’s funny to me how people always have the totally wrong impression of me upon first sight. almost every single one of my current inner circle, that i love and adore, have told me that they [for whatever reason] highly disliked me when they first laid eyes on me. i don’t blame them, i guess. we’re all human. i know of at least one good time where i did the same exact thing to someone and i was super duper wrong about her too.

      with me however, the usual consensus is that i’m: shallow, superficial, materialistic, dumb, not about anything that’s real and important, the type that enjoys playing with people like toys, rude, conceited… the list goes on..

      clearly– after the pre-judger has had 5 minutes of talk time with me, he or she quickly changes their mind and keeps it moving. although, i can be [admittedly] ‘rude’ly honest and convinced of my queendom, it never ceases to amaze me how SURE people think they are of me. for the most part, i walk around knowing who i am ~ all of my intricacies, weirdness-es, or whatever– and meanwhile, the perceptions of me by others are so simplified and pretty much wrongashell. -oh well-

      i couldn’t care less. it’s actually good cuz i want people to be weeded out of my immediate atmosphere [without any direct effort on my part]. and if all it takes is a couple of immature judgements before any dailogue, then good riddance bookats. [see? there goes that rudeness again]
      *shrug*
      when i think about it, it’s kinda like why i love tattoos [and will get more whenever i feel like it]… i want to repel those that judge me for having them on my skin, or think that women shouldn’t have tattoos. those shallow hals that are so focused on my outer appearance, that they will never |ever| get close to the rEaL me. so, take a picture *pose* and BYE! it is what it is.

      oh yeah and i have to say one last thing. to those that think they know me because they click on elbieinc.com >if you have something to say about a blog i posted, put it in the COMMENT section [that's what it's there for] NOT my PERSONAL inbox. this is a public blog for the whole world wide web to see, not a doorway that leads to a personal discussion with me. stay in your lane before i put you there- mmmk??? *smooches* !!

      this song is fun [props to jazze-phizzle] but i hate the outfits. wardrobe dept- FIRED.

      15625 Responseshttp://www.elbieinc.com/2010/05/u-dont-know-me/u+dont+know+me2010-05-15+10%3A55%3A38eLbie
      Apr
      8
      2010

      beautiful friendships…

      Written by eLbie in love, zEn at 10:53 am on Apr, 8 2010




      my bff & i at indulj on u street nw, washington dc.

      this past month has put me through a lot. broken dreams, broken promises, broken hearts, broken confidence, broken wallets… u name it, i saw it break all around me. a rough time - but i made it through with flying colors…

      i have to recognize that it if it wasn’t for the beautiful friendships that i am surrounded with i probably would NOT have made it. [dead serious]

      BUT- guess what? [in true elbie fashion] i DID make it through… and this side of the struggle is a LOT more fun… everything is falling into place… and i am so grateful for those that are there for me: emotionally, spiritually, and lovingly.

      as far as FINANCIALLY- i got my OWN back. and i’m proud of myself… [fukk the dream-killers] i am a SOLDIER and its gonna feel good to owe not nayone muffukka when i BLOW UP!!!!

      ok. im done.
      time to go chant.
      love and blessings to you…

      14524 Responseshttp://www.elbieinc.com/2010/04/beautiful-friendships/beautiful+friendships...2010-04-08+15%3A53%3A38eLbie
      Mar
      30
      2010

      a new energy

      Written by eLbie in love, zEn at 12:00 am on Mar, 30 2010

      it has arrived honies… kinda like a ton-a-bricks [hurts like hell] but hey- i’ll take it.

      new is better than ‘old’ right? well .. at least technically.

      allow me to ramble:

      almost a year to the date
      here i am .. in the same place.
      a confused heart that loves so deep
      but [even with all the magic in these hands]
      i can’t ever make the love [actually]
      love me back.
      not like this.

      ‘i’m dying without u’
      ….
      that’s funny?
      or is that one of those ‘nervous’ laughs u told me about?
      nerves huh?
      i’m nervous my damn self
      heLL,
      it’s been that way for a while now.
      laughter and smiles have been strangers to me
      but we have managed to begin getting re-acquainted.

      not sure if this is a nightmare
      or [better yet]
      a twilight zone- that will soon return to orbit.

      but, i do know
      this past year has been a test.
      not only for my cooking/get-you-gifts ‘abilities’
      but ALSO for your commitment/word-is-bond capabilities.

      love is love
      but something is different.
      this isn’t what we signed up for
      and you know it.

      taking my love freely and
      keeping yours far FAR away from me.
      voluntarily.

      .voLuntariLy.

      selfish asshole huh??
      ……..[nervous laugh] ………
      i must have missed that memo.
      damn.
      totally didn’t bother reading the warning label.

      [i'msuchanidiot]
      cuz it was RIGHT there.
      in bright red
      blinking even.
      and it KEPT blinking.
      WARNING
      WARNING
      WAR
      NING!!!

      silly me.
      thinking my magic can, one day
      turn the bold red light
      >> into a bright but forgiving green candle.
      lush & fertile grounds
      for something beautiful.. to grow on… flourish on
      “be spoiled” on…
      forever.
      … what??

      wait-
      wasn’t ‘love’ your word?
      ‘madly in love‘ to be exact.

      come to find out
      not nearly mad enough.
      not even close.
      u can [actually] breathe without me.
      wow- u mean to tell me, i can exhale now?????

      w-o-w.

      [don't wanna be your wife... i'd rather be your LIFE]

      call me crazy, extreme, whatever.
      i’ll be that.
      i need more.
      and thank God[dess] i always manage to get what i need.
      some how.
      after all, one cold winter night of ‘09…
      i did get you.

      13867 Responseshttp://www.elbieinc.com/2010/03/a-new-energy/a+new+energy2010-03-30+05%3A00%3A35eLbie
      Mar
      9
      2010

      happy birthday boo

      Written by eLbie in love at 10:18 pm on Mar, 9 2010

      dear baby,

      today is the day that i’ve been looking forward to spending with you but you are in a whole ‘nother country saving lives [in chile]. i want you to know that i am home and thinking about you every second. talking about you to anyone that isn’t tired of hearing about how wonderful you are.

      i wish i could call your mother to thank her for blessing me [and the world] with a giving and positive person like you.

      i am grateful beyond any words that i can type on this blog.

      patiently waiting for your return,

      the love of your life.

      ——————————————————————————————————-

      march 11th- update. i’m ‘protesting’ on my blog and leaving my march 9th posting up [until further notice]

      sending my baby lots of (((positive energy))) and strength.

      there was a strong earthquake reported in chile today. [trying to be calm & positive at all times] *sigh* click here for updates…

      i.LovE.u
      i will be waiting for you here.
      inside my heart, i know i’m the one.
      to love you more that you’ve ever experienced.
      you will see.
      i can give you everything
      to build your kingdom
      with your princess…/queen-to-be/
      by your side.
      always.

      - i just watched ru paul last episode baby! u will be GLAD when u see who got kicked off *teehee* -

      ——————————————————————————————————–
      march 13th- update.

      i got this as a post on my facebook page from one of the most beautiful-est and most kindred spirits i know. its almost as if she felt the energy in my every cellular structure. *sigh*

      i was gonna write a piece about some feelings that i’ve been having surface lately… but this song plays the lyrics before my pen ever even touched paper.

      thank you for being connected to me berry…. especially at a time where i feel so much disconnect around me. friends like you almost never com in a lifetime. i am so fortunate. i so <3 you!

      Clara Hill ft. Vikter Duplaix - Paper Chaser

      ——————————————————————————————————–
      march 14th- update.

      had a blessed weekend but it was hard for me not to constantly think about a big piece of my heart that i miss terribly. every other second i am hit with one emotion after another. more earthquakes reported in chile today -sigh-

      i’m sending my baby lots of positive energy along with all the people of chile AND haiti as well as the volunteers that are there risking their lives for others. blessings to all those that serve and serve without asking for anything in return…

      love you boo.

      13345 Responseshttp://www.elbieinc.com/2010/03/happy-birthday-to-my-love/happy+birthday+boo2010-03-10+03%3A18%3A24eLbie
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