i’m seriously loving it here in china… totally confirms for me that i do NOT belong in the USA 365 days of the year.

SO blessed and grateful for this experience. i am humbled by the fact that i [li'l ole eLbie] get to be the one given this opportunity of a lifetime. imma make you proud, honies.. just wait.

big things are coming….

my younger cousin ‘baby’ - LOVE him. so inspiring he is. *sigh*

[disclaimer - i had a whole 'nother blog prepared for today discussing the beautiful things that are in my life at the moment, but i have to light some of y'all up rea' quick]

soooo, um YEA - shout out to people [stranger bitches] that read my blog and ‘report’ what i write to people that know me in real life. you think you know me because you come to this blog and read what i write, but you really don’t know SHIT. what i put on my blog [or twitter] is not a play-by-play of what elbie does and/or is doing. it is a compilation of words cleverly put together for ME [or those in my immediate inner circle] to TRULY understand. sure, i touch on universal topics that most of the honies [my readers] can relate to but by no means is this a factual autobiography in-the-making.

[i'm a SCORPIO bitches, read about me]

if you actually think that i put real-time and sensitive information about my PERSONAL BUSINESS on here, then you are really a lot dumber than you look. [dingbatt] i’m really fukking tired of people interfering with my creative process by stalking my blog, and bringing my online content into the real world where i have NEVER spoken to them or even know them from a can of paint.

in the past, this would make me think about shutting my blog down or re-opening an anonymous one in order to eliminate dumb assholes that think they know me. . . but you know WHAT??? fukk y’all. i will never do that, nor will i ever edit myself and what i put on this blog to appease, conform to, or compromise for peons that think they can ‘use’ what i freely give against me.

why should i???? it’s not my fault that you’re so SIMPLE and single-dimensional. it’s not my fault that your life is so BORING that you have nothing better to do than run your mouth about mine.

……. dumb ass fukking SHEEP.

now, go run and tell THAT.

-aren’t you thrilled since you’re a FAN and i actually wrote this blog about you?- u should be. smile and take a screen-capture.

HI HONIES!!!!

this week has been amazing. life is so great isn’t it? just when u think the rain is coming down on me and life is coming to a slow and painful end. there is a nice memo in my inbox: “i’m not goin ANYWHERE booboo” *cheese*

so, my few stolen days in heaven were just what the doctor ordered. all i remember is laughing NON-STOP. felt so free and relaxed. yes. SO necessary for the spirit. especially mine.

so as i unpack from that, i now have to start packing for the amazing opportunity that is in my immediate future. to be in a whole new world, like - literally. dreams do come true and i’m taking mine by force. eff that.

i’m so blessed and taken care of by the universe that some people hate on me for it. *blank stare* |especially if divine intervention forces them into the conspiracy| the one that was set up for me to always be fortunate and great. and i do mean always.

what can i say… the universe takes care of those with a good, GIVING, and open heart. i’m happy to be on that team. thrilled.

even tho there are times where i just wanna say ftw, i don’t care anymore. to hell with ever caring and giving someone a chance to truly have vip access to my heart but, i know that’s not me. it’s not how i operate. i’m not meant to be a bitter ‘victim’ at LovE’s expense.. no ma’am no girl [copyright brian bee]

yea, we have our moments and fight intensely at times… but overall- i know LovE got my back more than anything else on this planet.

it defies logic all the time, confuses the smartest people, gets on my last and final nerves, and can just be, overall, completely destructive in the wrong hands..

but i am not mad.

too much magic in my fingers boo…
be good k?

*********happy birthday to my baby sis.. i SO love her *********

*side eye*

hi honies!!! welcome back to my teeny weeny blog that i LOVE YOU for reading. *muah* *muah*

ok so, next week, i will be detoxing. not really physically, but |moreso| emotionally and mentally. i’m going away for a few days - no reason or purpose other than to just eat, yoga, meditate, read and SLEEP the whole time. no laptop, no internet, no unsolicited phone calls, none of that….

just mE.time.

the good news is.. imma be SO good when i come back.

i been so lost, drained, sad, and just unsure of a lot of things that are/were in my life. but reality checks are being handed out and i definitely got my final dose for the year.

i look forward to a totally new me.

stay tuned….

success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts. ~ winston churchill

so there have been a lot of things going on in my world these days… talk about sh*t hitting the fan.
i got my umbrella tho [trust] AND a poncho AND i got folks on my side that got my back.
after all these years of having backs, it’s good to know that i chose the right people to surround me.
at the end of the day- no matter what - the universe showed up and showed OUT [u hear me???]

i meeeeean talk about, i’m UNdestructible.

[self-discovery] i see now that tippy-toeing is NOT my style. and neither is getting cut SHORT. never has been and never will be. when i go against my instinct and fight my nature, it NEVER works out for me. you hear me>> NEVER.
i’m not meant to ‘quietly go to slaughter’ bitches… i’m meant to kick, scream, and fight for everything that i believe in and KNOW that i deserve.

it amazes me how people think that they have the license to criticize me and say shit to me when in actuality, they don’t run this. I RUN THIS. always have. on my OWN- often times to my detriment. but regardless of the bumps and trips, IM THE MUTHAFUKKA THAT IS RUNNING THIS ONE-WOMAN SHOW. and the fat lady ain’t sung yet.

TRUST.

[some advice to my honies] - listen to billie holiday’s words… ‘God bless the child that got his OWN’ - don’t ever let anyone make you feel worthless just because you might not be doing as ‘well’ as they are. FUKK that. i don’t care how bad things are, get UP from that ditch u tripped and fell into and keep your head UP to the stars. you are BLESSED and FORTUNATE. don’t let anyone steal the shine that you were given by that magical energy that keeps your lungs breathing… without ANYhelp from you. that is MAGIC!

seriously honies… if you only knew the half…. u would think i have a magical fairy in my back pocket that i call on every day to fix the shenanigans that go on. SERIOUSLY.

i have NO clue how i’m not laid out in a corner somewhere; rocking back and forth; collecting tears in bucket. but i DO know that i’m not there for a reason. [WOOOOOOT]

just when i thought that things were looking GRIM, here comes the rain…. *happy tear*

more and more i’m lining up with my divine purpose. . . more and more i’m detoxing from aurapollution….

not dead bitches- i’m constantly growing….

the life of a butterfly continues…. and beautifies.