a 6.1 aftershock this morning in haiti….
no more word from boo….
this is really getting to be too much.
out of nowhere and without warning…
my heart ended up in a war-zone.

humbled by the universe’s unpredictable impulses… i will continue to send the whole country, and every life that is there right now, healing energy, thoughts of hope, positivity, and health.

to my baby, i know you read my blog every chance you get, so if you happen to be looking at this: [just know]

hello honies… thank you for logging on to my little corner of the www today, i truly appreciate you.

i got a LOT of responses about my blog from yesterday [public & private] and i was touched especially by one. before i post an excerpt of that message, i have to preface it by saying that i sincerely HOPE haitians were in no way offended by the email i posted yesterday. by no means was i attempting to judge haiti/haitians or make them out to be anything more than human beings under distress. i posted that email from boo MAINLY to illustrate to my readers one of the reasons that i don’t watch the news. that reason being- one-sided and half-assed ‘news’. i wanted to give you a small view of what is REALLY happening out there to the people of haiti and those that are there helping them because the ‘news’ would NEVER show failed attempts, only successful ones.

with that said:
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i want u to know that it is not all like that…there are many haitians over there who have lost everything but there are still banding together helping one another…there are many haitians who appreciate the assistance of the americans and the international community…we cant attribute the actions and words of a few as the feelings and behavior of an entire nation.

as a nation and as a people, we have endured alot…but we havent let that rob us our integrity and humanity…just like anywhere in the world there are some people who do despicable acts or unforgiving things but that is not our legacy..at our core we are loving and caring people…through all the hardships and adversity we have faced we try to rise above it, with our heads held high and our eyes fixed on God
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have a great sunday night honies, i’m gonna be home soon. can’t wait to be back in the arms of my rough and rugged boyfriend ~~> new YAWK city!!!! he treats me like an artist. =)

i woke up to this at 7am today.
it’s from my baby, who has been in haiti since saturday [excerpt from the e-mail]
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This is crazy here…
I’ve never seen anything like it. Piles and piles of bodies all over the place.
Soooo many kids without parents. There’s absolutely nothing here. Just rocks and dead bodies.
Sooo many people injured. The whole place stinks of dead bodies.
I’ve only slept two hours so far like the rest of the people who came to aid.
What disturbs me the most is that adult haitian men are literally taking clothes and food from women and kids for themselves.
I was handing out meals and treating them at the same time to injured and uninjured people.
There was this haitian men in their 40’s, I gave him his meal, he ate it really fast and asked for more. I said only one meal for one person.
Then he saw this 4yo injured girl eating a meal, he took a rock, hit the girl on the head and stole her meal!!!
WTF?!?!?! She died instantly. I was horrified to see that. And this is just one case. These people aren’t helping eachother at all.
They are killing eachother so they can steal food and clothes, even tho they already got some.

They said, they don’t like americans and that americans owe them A LOT so we HAVE to be here and help them. They’re not thankful at all. I hate it.
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*sigh* i have no words at all really…. but ‘horror’ and ‘apocalypse’ do come to mind. happy birthday dr. king. we need your wisdom and hope today. we love and miss you. and THANK YOU for giving your LIFE to a cause at a time when the rest of your people were too scared to stand up.

ok honies. i know i went off a little bit yesterday but it was warranted and i wont apologize for it. i was teased TOO many times as a defenseless child by people that thought it was funny to clown me about what i look like and where i come from. in 2010, i will NOT be quiet about it. & whatever tacky person wants to come at me again, will hear my mouth AGAIN.
[over it]

moving right along… i still have haiti in my heart and i know the death toll is going up exponentially as the days go by without any MAJOR relief being accomplished. *looks up* i know they will get through this. rebuild. their spirit is strong and history has proven it.

had SUCH a fun night last night. rolling with the homies…. [RIP brittany murpy ]
enjoy your sunday honies…

who the HELL needs enemies????? [trying to calm down]

ok honies… how bout this tho???

first of all: let me just say that yesterday was the 102nd anniversary of the sorority that I belong to.
Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority, Incorporated. i worked my BUTT off to join this organization and worked even harder, once i joined.
Since i graduated, i haven’t been active, nor have i really kept in touch with those sorors that brought me through/came through with.

now, [unlike last year] i know i didn’t blog about the AKA anniversary, and that was CLEARLY due to the fact that, there are much MORE important things going on in the world for me to feel ‘good’ about SHIT.

so fast forward to today when i got on facebook and saw that one of my ‘big sisters’ commented on a picture that is actually very near and dear to my heart: [exhibit A]

do u know what this bitch called me?????? ~~>>>>> she had the fukkin AUDACITY to call me: ‘ivy unicef’ …

now MIND YOU- when i was in school, i already didn’t fukk with a lot of my ‘big sisters’ DUE TO rude comments that they had made about my FUKKIN ETHNICITY during a time where they had ‘power’ over me. now, 12 years LATER, this bitch comes out her face and takes me back there.

[CANT BE SERIOUS] - oh yeah, she was. sad thing is, she is ‘educated’ [as far as academics is concerned] but i guess they don’t give out doctorates in KINDNESS and EMPATHY.

this is what i have to say to that CRAP:

listen here HEFFA [and anyone else that is IGNORANT and calls people names that poke fun at WORLD SUFFERING] : my country is a KINGDOM… ya’ understand???? i am PROUD of where i came from REGARDLESS of the struggles that my country has gone through. i am a PROUD, FLAG-WAVING, ISKISTA-DANCING, card-carrying member of the ETHIOPIAN community. any problems you have regarding where i COME FROM and the BEAUTY that it EXUDES, i got the problem SOLVER bookat. research your history, DOC.

and in the words of AfrikanBoy:
‘u think u tough??? NOW, COME TO AFRICA’