[i promise i’m gonna get some sort of phone call about this post]
~~> and i promise i won’t pick up.

it’s been some time since i felt free. i would venture to say, i have never TRULLY felt free. stolen moments of temporary bliss…maaaaybe. but FREE? … smh… naw.

my question is: WHY do i have to steal it, and WHY does it have to be so temporary????

i cant.

in my ‘old’ age, i’ve been drinking cup after cup of ‘i don’t-give-a-fuk juice’ and let me tell you honies, it’s been getting me RIGHT. slowly, but surely, i am unlocking those chains that have had my mind, body, and soul locked up ever since i was BORN.

for me, the chains have been mostly blamed on ‘culture’. being born in another country and having to call the u.s.of.a home for the past 20 something years, comes with plenty complications that only a FEW of my fellow ‘international transplants’ can understand.

you are first faced with the monumental task of assimilating into a completely foreign society, and then you have to [somehow] remember to honor and respect where you came FROM. it goes without saying that the 2 are conflicting interests, a lot more than not.

add to that, the fact that the human struggle [to find oneself] is a major task all by itself, and what do you have??? a royal MESS chile, that’s what.

back to me tho [this is MY blog after all] all those unspoken restrictions have not only made me stressed beyond belief, but have also [dangerously] stifled my creativity. oh HEYL naw. THAT is a major violation and i blame myself, really, for entertaining the BS. but even a princess is HUMAN. *sigh*

it’s cool tho. mama is ready to come out of her shell and frankly, i don’t give a DAMN who isn’t ready for it. get your bells & whistles [or barf bags] ready cuz when i come OUT…. it’s gonna be with a BANG.

bloooooop!

p.s. happy birthday to my talula -preeya. love you girl!!!! happy FAB 33!!!! *hugs*

TGIF= T.hank G.od I.m F.abulous

if you know my blogs, or anything about my e-life, you know that i always say TGIF!! but not to thank God that it’s friday [cuz friday is just another day of the week to me, besides, MONDAY is really my favorite day of the week so...]

every chance i get, i make it a point to take the time out to recognize my gifts in the PRESENT. not, wish for more, or daydream about what ‘could’ be. i revel in the moment and acknowledge that i am living my dreams right NOW. not when i get a book deal or a record deal or some major recognition from someone i admire… i have it all NOW.

it’s a necessary step to take because time truly flies and if you aren’t careful, you will miss all that you are blessed with by being too preoccupied by stuff that doesn’t matter ~~> the ‘future’~~> and even less relevant, the ‘past’.

i have a LOT of work to do today for a corporate client that needs a LOT of feng shui in his companies.

thank you God for letting me do what i love and rewarding me by allowing me to make a living doing it.

*humbled* and you should be too honies!!!

bye for now!!!

just got news that ‘dude’ from pretty ricky molested a 4-year-old and that’s why he got kicked out of the group.

*sigh* this really disturbs me and and i don’t care what or WHO he is for me to say that he should be hung up to dry like any other child molester.

icant.

i wont go further into it or give this any more airtime, but u can look around the net and inform yourself of the deets.

i’m going to bed.

hi honies!!! i know i’ve been MIA this month but mama is BACK so get used to it.

ok so the other day i was having a conversation with a dear friend about raggedy women and how a lot of them not only DATE married men, but actually SEEK them out. *blank stare*

i mean, is that not the buckethead-est thing in the world? who DOES that??? … you’d be surprised.

as we further discussed the reason as to WHY this is and what actually makes a married man so attractive to them, she cleverly brought up the fact that married men are more ‘marketable’. *faints* [and don't let the wife be FINE, cuz then the stakes go UP]

it’s so freaking true but can you IMAGINE?????? because the man had the ability and means to get a WIFE, stable home, and family- it makes you wanna dibble and dabble in that man??? really????? that’s how you feel???

a damn shame america. i tell you what, how ’bout all you trollups line up and march your asses down on to divorce court and catch the idiots FOB. ???????

sh*t.

bye for now!!!!!

as usual, my gaga had a performance this past sunday night at the 2009 American Music Awards, KILLED it, and had me nearly pass the hell out. if u were under a rock, watching snoozefootball, or dexter and missed it: u know mama got the hook up for you rightchea:

and as if she didn’t do the MOST, the very next night, she stopped by jay leno for a sit0down chat and another smashing performance of bad romance. i just have to say that miss boomkack never fails to inspire me from deep down within the core of my soul. it is the most inspiring thing to see other people fight for their dreams and sing and dance all the way to the top, not to mention, laugh all the way to the BANK honey!!!! yaaaaaaas.
anywho- i must go for now and edit the night away.

i love what is coming up on elbieinc.com [details to follow]

jay leno performance-

interview-