look how cute my little boo boo is. i sooooooo love her!!!! my god.baby ‘kj’ - look how she is still looking at herself when i give her a biiig smoooooch. :D. she’s 1.
ok let’s see… i have some things on my mind today. i feel a rebellion coming on people. i’m serious. i was watching the britney spears ‘for the record’ thingie that was on MTV and i’m telling YOU…. i’m getting tired of being bullied by those that have the privilege of me giving a fukk about them. taking my kindness for weakness will not get you far IDIOTS.
seriously now, how much longer do you think i’m gonna keep quietly treading along the waters that have been silently approved by you??? let me help you out - the road has come to a DEAD END boo boo.
i’m in a place of comfort that is radiating from within… and INSPITE of the bull shit. you wanna talk??? imma give you something to talk about TRUST ME.
there is only one stamp of approval that i need and HONEY, i BEEN stamped with that ink- on the beautiful day i was born back in 1976. OK???? and it spells ‘ G-O-D’
thaaaaaaaanks.
ok i go now!
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[currently] at the dining room table chez mon parents… thinking about life and eating chips and dip. bbc on in the background.
i have to touch on a couple of topics but the most important one being, AIDS awareness and protection. it is beyond me that people in this day and age still think that it is ok to have casual/unprotected sex whenever their hormones tell them to. *sigh* it’s just too dangerous people. i love you too much to go out like that.
the 2nd thing i wanted to say was that i am very disappointed in these so-called ‘organizations’ out here that are set up in these exclusive and alienating churches. it seems that think they are too good for us regular folk that aren’t in complete denial of our ‘transgressions’ and ‘worldly’ ways. they preach no sex before marriage to the people that preach the same thing. what are you changing?? are you reaching out to people that don’t want to be ‘partners’ of your billion dollar church with the paid-off private jet? what if they needed someone to take the time out and talk to them about abstaining from, not pre-marital but, pre-mature sex. is that too much?? will it tarnish your law degrees and your mbas if you talk to highschool dropouts??
i doubt it.
the problem is the fake-ness, the elitism, and the hypocritical nature of the church today. preach one thing, and then behind closed doors, do the opposite. exact reason why i gave up on religion and looked at the God that lives within me for spiritual guidance.
[thank you to bscott, for introducing me to this song. ]
Written by eLbie in zEn at 10:40 am on Nov, 24 2008
[currently] on the dumb megabus on the way back to ny. *rolling eyes* i am SO sorry for cheating on you, boltbus, you are SO much better than this one. listening to vikter duplaix to get my zEn in order… he is so good to my ears. i’m in the mood for love…
i don’t know if it’s because my bff is getting married, or if it’s because the weather is getting colder and i’m longing to be held close and protected from the chill in the night. the same chill that sometimes creeps into my room and catches a corner of my exposed skin.
today i feel like writing about love. about the magic of it and the capability that it has to make you feel like you can accomplish anything or overcome any challenges that life might randomly throw at you. no matter what gets ugly and where, true love stays beautiful, pure, and untainted. always a constant.
it’s quiet beautiful. and it’s also sad because many people are robbed of the capacity to ever give or receive this kind of love. ever.
i constantly pray for those hurt hearts.
i ♥ love. how forgiving it is. how all-knowing it is. how calm and confident it is. how safe it is. a place where you can come and be yourself and not feel bad for any of it. not one tiny bit.
and all the while, [as if that wasn't enough] love is also there to support you in your personal goals and dreams too. AND struggle with you when things get messed up and shit gets real. i mean who wouldn’t ♥ love???
anybody??
yea. well i sure need it and i have to say that i am SOOOOO blessed in the love that i have in my life. all the way from my family, to my few but necessary friends, to my honey that is too far right now for me to enjoy right NOW.
sucks huh? i know. but i’m a believer in not seeking the easy way out. i am enjoying the slow-paced consistency. sometimes it’s good not to get what you want exactly how and when you want it. [ ugh! ] ok ok ok.
like i said. i like how it’s going. it’s so good … rEaLLy good. *sigh* :D and soon enough we will be enjoying each other again even more than before. :D
Written by eLbie in zEn at 9:34 am on Nov, 21 2008
that is, thank God i’m fabuLous… [currently] doing too much, as usual. i have some errands to run in jersey real quick. and be back home before 6:30 to sign for a delivery. be back later…
finally made it home, it is now almost 6:20 [already checked on my delivery and it will be here soon!!] and i made it thru this long day. going to dc for a couple of days. gonna see my godbaby and family at bff’s bridal shower, so i look forward to that. making my famous shrimp pasta as well as my infamous potato salad. i can’t wait to PIG out!
getting on the boltbus at 6:45 in the am tomorrow, and i am NOT looking forward to that one bit. let’s just hope the train is working this weekend cuz if not, i WILL slam take a cab all the way to penn station. i am not playing.
ok so how about this, i went out the other night and got a [reminder]dose of how disrespectful people are to the institute of marriage. so disrespectful, in fact, that it is damn-near contagious. i mean who the hell am i to be thinking about your spouse, if YOU aren’t even thinking about their asses??? i meeeeeean…. i’m just SAYING.
disgusting i tell you. but it is too much of the norm these days for me to be reacting so adversely every time i come across the shit. i mean, i might actually run out of throw-up!!!
and i’m actually supposed to be SAD that i’m 32 and never been married?????? -umm- YA.
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look how cute my little boo boo is. i sooooooo love her!!!! my god.baby ‘kj’ - look how she is still looking at herself when i give her a biiig smoooooch. :D. she’s 1.
that is, thank God i’m fabuLous… [currently] doing too much, as usual. i have some errands to run in jersey real quick. and be back home before 6:30 to sign for a delivery. be back later…
